Anthony van Leeuwen, Author of LGBTQ Originals
Anthony meets his Muse in Amsterdam when they are both very young. They share a romantic experience in the darkness of a club over several nights. Apropos for Anthony because he had been living in the dark, just rising from the ashes of a family tragedy and just beginning the struggle to come out.
The Muse, the brightest star after his darkest night, appears with love. But having no idea who he is or who he is becoming, Anthony is shy and too afraid to reveal himself. So, Anthony lies about his name and never asks the boy for his.
When they briefly see each other in the light for the first time, Anthony runs like Cinderella, not from the boy, but from being gay. He has no clue of the next step after such depth of intimacy in the dark—not understanding the love between two men—and feels shame for lying about his name.
Two years later, while living in California, Anthony comes out. He realizes the love he is beginning to feel for himself is the same love he felt in the boy's arms. Months afterward, Anthony thinks he sees the boy walking down the street. Anthony doesn't believe it could be the same boy, now in his country.
Nevertheless, he is inspired to return to Amsterdam to see if their paths cross again. Thus, a search that spans the globe begins.
Life brings Anthony opportunities for home and love in different lands, from Europe to Australia to Africa. Yet, with each experience, Anthony tries to let go of what seems like the impossible dream—to find a man he knows nothing about, not even his name.
The Muse continues to return in dreams during times when the support of a best friend is needed. Anthony begins to wonder if The Muse exists or if the unconventional relationship is all just a fairy-tale dream. Nevertheless, the dreams and inspiration continue fueling a second and third book.
Nearly twenty years from their initial meeting in the darkroom of a club in Amsterdam, at the bewitching hours of a winter night, to the late summer warmth of an afternoon day in New York City, The Muse Anthony searched the world for comes walking down his street.
Anthony is again rising from the ashes of a second tragedy that wounded his heart during a global pandemic. Again after Anthony's darkest night, the same brightest star comes to see him through.
Lost and Found: His Name picks up in novella format where the book Sprookje leaves off. They are the last two books in The Provenance of My Love series.